A Letter to Nicaragua

An emotional response to Founder’s Anonymous Article

I’m writing this from the third story of a science building. A place where I came (hode up, 1,2– 4 years ago!) I was a freshman at Stonehill College. I was in a communications class. It had something to do with a word that started with “V” and I got a 90 on one test. I slept most of those classes– I was very tired from early mornings of hockey (where I didn’t play but fought to practice with the team in efforts to prove myself, in hopes to one day earn a roster spot– side note: achieved, spring 2011).

I was working with a girl– she had become a good friend years later. Can’t even remember her name now, its so pathetic.

Now I’m here.

no girl. no partner. no team. no group. same campus. same building. same place. different feeling.

I wrote a paper on place in a sophomore year or wait freshman year Lit class (spring semester). About, how the feeling of place can change when dealing with the same “physical” space. I thought I understood it. but I guess I never did, until now.

Scary how a place can mean such different things to you one day versus another.

Back then I actually feel close to where I am now, in this place, as opposed to the couple or so times I came across this same space, during the years.

I was vulnerable. A freshman. Didn’t have many friends. And felt uncomfortable about the whole situation. Still having that longing homesick feeling that seemed to not go away.

Right now I can relate.

It’s my first time back on campus as an ‘officially’ graduated student. I’m living with a friend who has CP and I will be his PCA (personal care asst.) for some time (assumed the year but pending how well this first week goes, haha, who knows– Just kidding! It will go great, but pending the successes of other things in my life, I will take it week by week).

My goals have been three fold– come here, and 1. Enjoy living with Jamey, an awesome kid and a brilliant motivator. I know I can learn a lot from the experience and I am positive we will have a great time together 2. Promote Squirr3l– the new mobile social network I recently launched, and 3. Utilize my time and resources efficiently to build a branding company I’m collaborating with a life coach on.

Coming back I don’t feel as though I belong. 

I feel out of place. I don’t know all the people. The people I did know here are all gone, and I feel like an old loner.

So I searched all campus for a place to sit down with my MacBook, kick off the flip flops, cross my legs, enjoy a view and do-up a kick ass logo for my brother’s ex CFO’s beer label.

And here i am.

And I still feel lonesome– felt– until– i jumped on the internet.  I read this blog and it brought me back to the sense of community and the importance of having people to connect with that allows you to elevate one another.

What does Elevate one another mean?

“Elevate one another” Noun: 1. bring out the spiritual, physical, and emotional “best” feelings through positive connection, interaction, and collaborative mind/idea sharing. 2. Promoting and supporting personal growth & development. 3. Sharing Awesomeness.

Seeing Marcella’s little picture in her post, reading this article, thinking back to that G+ hangout with the TPV gang! I realized I have my community and I always will. Through some entrepreneurial outreach, long hours of designsurfing, bravado and some good ol’ serendipity, I recently found myself in an awesome online little clique of life coaches, entrepreneurs, founders, or what I like to call: thinkers and connectors.

Us idea makers connect through emails, posts, comments, sharing articles, ideas, and Skype seshes (when we’re lucky). Yeah, it’s not always planned but we know we can rely on one another when in need. I’m not scared anymore to tap into my network and I love knowing that a few words from a good friend can ease my loneliness and make me feel “at home” from this virtual desk and “remote lifestyle”.

This is just one wall of difficulty I’ve faced.

Now I’m plowing through it and facing my beast. And I’m not doing it alone =)

Shout out to my “cluster of comfort”. They have an idea who are they are;)

“When idea’s collide, people are made”